Friday, May 22, 2015

Wish To Be Reading...

This is what I wish I could be reading this friday...



After reading a lot of Colleen Hoover's books I cannot for the life of me accept the fact that I haven't even been able to snag this book so I can add it to my shelves... AND read it.

But well, that's how $$ is haha.

Anyway.
If you've been lucky enough to get it or even read it I send my dark envy aura your way, you lucky son/daughters of cloud.

I'll leave you guys with the book description.
Happy Friday!

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Auburn Reed has her entire life mapped out. Her goals are in sight and there’s no room for mistakes. But when she walks into a Dallas art studio in search of a job, she doesn't expect to find a deep attraction to the enigmatic artist who works there, Owen Gentry.


For once, Auburn takes a risk and puts her heart in control, only to discover Owen is keeping major secrets from coming out. The magnitude of his past threatens to destroy everything important to Auburn, and the only way to get her life back on track is to cut Owen out of it.

The last thing Owen wants is to lose Auburn, but he can't seem to convince her that truth is sometimes as subjective as art. All he would have to do to save their relationship is confess. But in this case, the confession could be much more destructive than the actual sin…


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Get the book! -_- before me


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Thursday, May 21, 2015

I love reading! Do you? -BookPics Is Curious-

I never really thought bad things, really really bad things could happen to such good people.

Not that this "bad" thing is anything new. But I always thought that something would give, you know? Like, life would be a little easier, friends would be easier to come by, money would be much more reachable. And a lot more.

But now, my mom's been sick since fall last year and I thought it would somewhat change me, change me and my aversion to socialize, change me and my fear of new things, change me and my low self esteem, change me and my struggling to make decisions, change me and a whole family.
The only thing so far that's really changed is my mom, I've seen her grow slowly and constantly and without a pause, weaker. Her family abandoning her and my dad's family being there when I thought they wouldn't really.

I've seen my dad get years older in a matter of months, both my sisters and I live in denial. And my relationship with God take a nosedive. Not that I blame God, I blame me for a lot of stuff, sometimes even for my mom's bad days.

No, she hasn't cancer but yes it is a common illness here in my country.
She's in need of a transplant but we don't have any sort of waiting list or donors list whatsoever.
Good treatment is eating up a lot of $$$ because the public/free kind of treatment would only help her get worse.
No my sisters and I won't be able to donate because doctors say we're too young and my mom and dad refused the thought without us even able to offer. But offer we did, beg we did.

There are some really good days when we will all forget my mom's condition.
Then, there's the bad days, when I feel like building up walls around me is the best thing I can do, I'm almost 25 but when she gets so down even my dad can't be of much help I feel like I'm only 5 and I need my mom back.
The one who always would bicker with me back and forth, the one who would sneak up on my bed in the middle of the night to stay up talking with me because she couldn't sleep and didn't want to wake up dad.
The one who fought me and my sister when we decided we wanted to go abroad to study.
The one who was so strong she would carry every burden of each and every member of her family if she could.

I want her back.
I know it'll be a hard and maybe even long road.
We are in desperate need of a kidney.
I would have never thought such a tiny or tiny organs would have such a huge part in one's health.
She has had to refrain herself from eating so many things it's completely ridiculous and sad for her.
If there's one thing my mom has always enjoyed? Food!
Specially the saucy hot type. If it had tomatoes my mom would definitely be taking a huge bite out of it.
But now that's poison to her. Literally.

I know it won't change overnight.
But, there's been some good things.
I've learned a lot.

I now know what true love is like, looks like... How it interacts, how it treats, how it touches, how it sees, hears, strokes, how it is simply there, no questions asked.
My dad loves my mom so much even I can feel it over me. My mom loves my dad so much I can't help but infected along with it.
I see it every single day now. Even more so than before.
They never say it to each other, they're shy that way.
But whenever my dad cooks for her, when he lets her sleep in, when she cooks for him, when her eyes search and search for him inside an overcrowded room just to find him already looking at her.

I'm happy and sad.
I'm helpless but hopeful.
I'm empty but full.
I'm the same but changed.
I still believe in God.
I still strongly believe that love is the greatest weapon of all.
After all, God is love and love is God.

But if you have a family member sick, ill, or suffering from one condition or another. Now I can relate better than ever.
Maybe you don't believe that things will get better. Maybe you do.

But I just want you all to remember.
We are not alone.
You are definitely not alone.
Your pain can be heard, can be seen, can be smelled and even touched.
Having faith isn't bad. Disappointment isn't wrong.
Hopefulness isn't a weakness.
Smiling is possible.

There's always tomorrow. There's always a minute from now. You never know...

I love my family. I can't tell you how much more appreciative of it I've become.
I love the friends I've made through the blogging/reading/kpop community. I don't regret all the time I spent writing reviews or reading books... It relaxed me, it made me breathe a little easier.

I know I've come back and back again trying to find some semblance of normalcy between real life and the internet but I wasn't able to, haven't been able to yet.
I tried coming up with reviews for the amazing books I've been able to read this year but I just couldn't even make myself pick up my laptop.
I've tried new things and at least one of them stuck with me.

But I just cannot for the life of me give up on this blog.
I can't.
It's been my sanity more times than I can count.
It's been with me since I gathered enough courage to put my thoughts out there for everyone and anyone to see.
2011...

We've come a long way, BookPics and I.
I thought it was all over a month ago.
I thought I would officially delete the blog, the facebook page and also delete all friends and authors from all the other social media. I felt like I would just somehow someway bring them down with how things were going in my family.
I felt so alone.

But now, I just can't.
I love books, I love reading, I authors. I'm thankful. I'm so freaking thankful is laughable!
If I were to recognize an author strolling outside my house I'd freaking attack-hug him/her.
And this is where I get to interact with them. My blog, social media. The internet.

I still have dreams of changing my scared and fearful persona. I still have faith in me.
I hope some of you get to read this.

I'll try to come back.
Slowly maybe, but surely.

I can't wait to tell you about all the reading I've done! All the new authors I've stumbled upon! All the pictures I've taken! All the music I've listened to! All the makeup shenanigans I've learned! All the amazing support my BookAngels have been!

So I don't have as much $$ to spend on books as before... still. I need to find a way.
I will find a way.

And even if most of you won't read this. I'll still just continue.
Because I took it for granted before.
But not anymore.
This tiny thing is mine!
All of this! I did it!
My space, my words, my fangirlingness!!!!
All mine!!

Love is everything you guys!!
I love reading!!
Do you?!

Monday, February 9, 2015

K-Song of the Week - Crazy by 4MINUTE

Hello my beautiful people!!

As I told you on the last post I'm going to start talking about a lot more than just books over here on the blog. Although I might just have to make a whole new blog to talk all about my new addictions: Makeup and K-pop respectively...

But don't worry I'll still be reading and reviewing books ;)

Now on to the main topic of this entry :D

Thanks to koreaboo (a kpop-kworld site I visit almost daily) I found out about 4MINUTE's new video and WOAH! What a video!!

--->>> 4MINUTE is back and better than ever! The girls show off an amazing updated look unlike anything fans have seen in the group’s previous promotions with their 6th mini-album and title track, “Crazy.”
Released on February 9th at noon KST, 4MINUTE goes crazy in their new hip-hop dance track, a bass and trap sound mixed in to create a powerful song. The music video is completely monotone in black and white, but only goes further to highlight the members’ powerful presence and charisma. Dancing to a hip and intense choreography, 4MINUTE was aided by choreographers Parris Goebel & Kiel Tutin, who is known to have worked with American pop star Jennifer Lopez. <<<--- (Source:koreaboo)



As you can see this is their 6th mini album but this is the first time I'm listening to one of their songs. And I have to admit I'm liking this new look and music style of theirs. I looked into some of their old songs and they kind of sounded too much a girly group for me but thank God for this song!! I'm loving it!!

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IF you're interested in me posting reaction videos to all the kpop madness say so on the comments below.

You'll find that korean pop is somewhat addictive not just because of the great beat of the songs but also because it isn't ONLY pop that they release. Right now (besides my ultimate favorite boy band of all time EXO) I've been somewhat obsessed with korean hip-hop? I don't actually know if they call it hip hop but that's the vibe it gives to me.

Anyway. If you've never heard or seen a kpop reaction video I completely recommend you go check out these 2 youtube channels:

*JREKML
*2MinJinkJongKey

They never fail to make me want to add a new singer or band or group to my never ending list of favorite kpop artists :D And I just kind of KNOW all about the feels you know? We bookish people live, breathe, eat, digest feels 24/7.

Until next time...

Has any of you ever been fan of kpop? Have you ever heard of it? Love it? Hate it?

Monday, January 19, 2015

New Year, New BookPics

(Sorry I didn't check the grammar much on this post-I was just too excited to finally feel inspired and happy enough to post again on the blog.)

Sorry sorry I haven't posted in forever. I've sucked as a blogger. Life hasn't been good nor bad. But I just wasn't feeling it T_T
Anyway. Here it goes...



Does "too late" exist?

This morning I was going through emails, instagram, facebook, pictures... And I found out I want to learn something... something I never thought I'd want to learn.
And I've started looking for places to learn it...
I'm scared though, always always scared. As I've always been whenever I try something new, especially after failing time and time again.
Am I too old to change my dreams? My goals?

Seriously, I know I just have to pray and be stronger than before. Be who I am without apology. Stop trying to please everyone and start pleasing me and be true to myself.
I'm not who I am just because, God let me be. Why can't anyone else?

Few people have stuck with me throughout my life and even fewer know me anymore.

My love for books and authors haven't changed.

But somehow last year, I lost track, lost sight of my goals, my dreams but the most sad of them all. I lost myself.

You have to understand how hard it's been for me to figure out what I want. And the only thing I've been able to come up with is with what I DON'T want.

I'm too insecure, too shy, too quiet, too nervous, too reserved... I overthink things too much.
I'm filled full with absolute fear.

And yet, I've done a lot of stuff that have helped me, bit by bit, get rid of that fear.

Traveling has been one of the best things that have happened to me.
It happened a lot last year and I'm all ready and set for this year to start that way.

I want to be useful. And at 24 without a real job of my own and no studies whatsoever there's no way in the world I am able to feel useful.
I've only ever worked at my dad's company, I don't know what being an employee is like and am completely terrified of go apply for a job even if it is a job I know I'll love and am good at.

All in all, one of my new year resolutions is to stop letting fear prevent me from being happy.
Start looking at the coca-cola (good-happy) side of things instead of the bad and negative things.

So without further ado...

Make up !!!!

O_O
Yeah, I want to study and learn how to do make up. Not entirely sure how that works over here the only thing that I know is that if I manage to start it I will do my bestest to finish it.

I want to stop this trend of mine that I have of starting tons of stuff and not finishing or continuing them...

Who knows... Maybe I'll even get the chance to take photography classes in between. I don't know. I just want to feel alive again.
And if writing it all down here on the blog for anyone/everyone to see makes me feel happy then I'll do it.

Things are going to be changing a bit here on the blog.

1. I've been reading more New Adult than any other genre lately and I plan on remedy that. I'm not quite ready to give up on my Young Adult reads just yet.
2. I'm going to try to post weekly (at the very least) reviews or anything book related.
3. I'm now really into nail art so don't get freaked out if you see a nail art post or picture here and there.
4. I'm writing fan fiction AND a story/book. So maybe I'll post parts of it here and there to get some feedback :D
5. I've discovered the world of K-Pop and it's got a hold on me babe! Really. You might find a k-pop related post as well sometimes.
6. Make up. Wow. I've never been a make up kind of girl BUT for the last 5-6 months I've taken a liking to it. I just love all the art, study, concentration and fun that goes into doing someone's make up so I'm planning on learning XD
7. I've started to buy more eBooks than printed books, HELP ME!!!!! I NEED my printed books BUT when I see the amazon kindle daily deals or some sales here and there I cannot just NOT one-click them T_T


Basically what I'm trying to say is that I want to expand a bit more what the blog is about. Last year I didn't even read 50 books.
I want to change that but I also want to listen to more music or buy some new nail polishes while going on a book-buying trip ;D

Will you stick with me?

EVEN STILL!! Books are my babies! Don't think even for a second that I'm giving up on them at all!
And to prove you just that.

Here's what I've been reading these last couple of weeks.


Woohoo!!
Lorelei James is a favorite classic of mine. I love love love her writing and specially love her Rough Riders series.
I started reading her books back in 2011 and haven't stopped since. The last week of December I decided to reread the first 10 all over again to refresh my mind and be able to enjoy even more all the other ones that follow them.

So if you're in the mood to read some really sweet, steamy and rough around the edges kind of cowboy story, please PLEASE do yourself a favor and read the Rough Riders series by Lorelei James :D You won't regret it ;)

Until next time my lovely people.
-kisses-

Friday, June 20, 2014

Official Blogging Break

Hi people!!! :D

Just a little something...
I'm taking a 1 week hiatus people :D
(I hope it's just ONE week hahahaha)

I'll be back next Friday!!! :D
See y'all then!!!!!

Keep reading!!!